Friday, August 29, 2008

Good day yesterday. So so today

Well, I did good yesterday. I didn't even get the craving for dessert.

Today has been OK. Here's what I ate. It wasn't a great day.

Breakfast - Biscuit and gravy at DDs school and 1% milk

Snack - walnuts, sweet peppers

Lunch - stalk of celery, very small portion of pot roast left overs

snack - cheese crackers w/ PB (200 cals and high in sodium), nectarine

Dinner (Late) - Grilled cheese sandwich and soda!!! soda?!?! I don't even like it that much! DH brought it to me and I didn't turn it down!!!

TOM is here. Arrived this morning just in time for the boating trip. Isn't that nice. I'm bloated like there's no tomorrow! I don't even want to know what the scale would say. I've been sitting with my swollen feet up as much as possible.

I'm grouchy and tired. I bet I would feel much better if I had more veggies and less sugar and sodium today.

I am excited about the weekend though. The kids have not been on a boat before. So this will be lots of fun for our family. See you all back here Monday late or Tuesday!

Thursday, August 28, 2008


Breakfast - 1/4 dried fruit, cinabon (screwed up I know)

Snack - Celery, 1 1/2 Tbsp PB

Lunch - 1/2 Tbsp Olive Oil, zuccini and yellow squash, 1 Tbsp parmesan cheese

Snack - nectarine, slice of swiss cheese

Dinner - Pot Roast, Potatoes and Carrots (reasonable portion is key)

Dessert - If chocolate craving, I'll make 1% pudding

Keeping the momentum

I have got a pretty good momentum going now. But I'm afraid this weekend will mess it up. I'm going to go into the weekend concentrating on portions and stopping when I'm full. I have little control over the foods served this weekend. And it has been years since I have visited my aunt and her husband so I have no idea what they will be serving.

So rules for this weekend:

1. Reasonable portions
2. Best choices from those offered
3. Stop eating when full
4. Limit alcohol to one drink per day
5. Drink as much water as possible
6. Take multi-vitamin daily

Yesterday was a pretty good day. I had planned pot roast for dinner, but forgot to get the crockpot going early enough. We were running around as a family last night and wouldn't be home with much time to spare before the kids bedtime. So we picked up a pizza. DH brought me two pieces. I at one and started on the second and then realized, hey I'm full and this is super greasy and icky... and I STOPPED! Put it down and didn't touch it again until... My youngest daughter came in crying because her brother took the last piece. So I gave her mine and she was happy and I didn't overeat! Woo Hoo! The rest of my menu was as planned with NO dessert.

TOM is due any moment. I wish it would just come already and be over with. I'm sure it will come as we are about to leave Saturday morning for the lake!!! Don't you think?!??!?

I'm really enjoying the support I get from my readers and at 3FC. My regular board on AOL has been quirky and so its quiet over there. I miss that group. That's where I lost my weight from my high of 292.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

I'm so excited...

To have some more readers! Its so encouraging - Thank you all!

Today was pretty good. I stayed with my planned menu. I added two slices of whole wheat low cal bread to my lunch because I noticed I was low on the grains in my menu.

For dinner I ended up making bacon cheeseburgers for the family. I baked myself a chicken breast and used half of it and a slice of swiss cheese to make a chicken sandwich (no bacon) instead. I also put onions sauted in a tad of olive oil on it. It was so tasty. I wish I would have had a whole grain bun to put it on!

I did go a little overboard with the dessert. I made the homemade hot fudge and decided to make only a half batch so it would not be around to tempt me. Good thing, cause as it was I still ate more than I should have. Maybe next time a third of a batch so that there will be none left after I serve everyone.

But all in all a good day. I got a ton done around the house. Laundry, dishes, vacuuming... And I did some bookkeeping for a client too. I even danced around the house a bit while doing my chores so that I'd get a little extra movement in.

I'm up a couple of pounds at the moment, but I'm sure its headed back off quickly. I hope TOM comes and goes quickly.

Oh, I had my multi-vitamin and water today too.

Today's Inspiration!

This thread on 3FC brought tears to my eyes this morning...

It is my inspiration for today.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Weigh In

OK, I'm scale obsessed at the moment. But that's because I'm at my losing time of the month AND I have a new nifty scale. The interesting this is that this morning's weigh-in brought me to 260.8 which is even closer to what I had been guesstimating on my crappy scale yesterday morning.

Yesterday was a pretty good day. Planning a menu for the day really helps. I still don't always get everything I plan down. Yesterday I never had my afternoon snack. Another note about my eating yesterday. I think that when I have a bigger more protein filled breakfast I don't want to much as much the rest of the day. I know I've read articles about that, but its interesting to see that it's true.

Last night I made a high fat meal for dinner. It was yummy. I'm aloud to have high fat meals. But I prefer they be made from real ingredients and that I have one reasonable portion. I even turned down the kids leftovers on their plates. Go me!

Oh, and a big accomplishment for me yesterday... After my protein rich breakfast I wasn't feeling hungry for lunch. In fact I had forgotten to eat lunch. I went to leave for Wal-Mart at close to 1 p.m., had my keys in hand and all. Then I realized I hadn't had lunch and going grocery shopping hungry would not be good. I didn't want to take the time to make the salad I had on my menu. So I took out three big romaine leaves, some cherry tomatoes and the leftover salmon. I wrapped some of the salmon and the tomatoes in the lettuce leaves and ate them. It saved time AND salad dressing calories to boot. On top of that I was able to stick to my list at the store and only buy healthy items. I even made it past the crunch-n-munch at the checkout. One of my weaknesses is to buy a box of crunch-n-munch at the checkout and have it eaten by the time I get home.

Definitely making progress! Yeah!

Friday, August 22, 2008

More scale obsession

OK, so my new scale is a highlight of my day... I was IMing with a dear friend of mine in Arizona and here was our conversation... It cracked me up.

Vonavie: Got a new scale today.
FRIEND: it shows you as 125?
Vonavie: That would be a keeper of a scale. But a broken one for sure.
Vonavie: If I was 125 pounds I'd be skin and bone with no organs.
FRIEND: figured you wouldn't buy a new scale unless you wanted one that lied to you
Vonavie: I was tired of my dial scale that no longer stays at zero. I would take the beginning weight and subtract it from whatever I got stepping on it.
Vonavie: Do that about three times getting off and on and then average it LOL
FRIEND: rofl!
FRIEND: keeps your math skills up to date!
Vonavie: weighing myself was getting quite time consuming
Vonavie: true that
Vonavie: perhaps it was good step aerobics though
FRIEND: rofl

Then later in our conversation I went to the bathroom and came back...

Vonavie: ib
Vonavie: I'm obsessed with my new scale... Funny thing... I lost a pound in the last hour LOL. OK, so no scale is perfect.
FRIEND: rofl! sounds like it's perfect to me!
FRIEND: with this new scale you can lose 24 pounds a day!
Vonavie: Yes Perfect! A wise investment!

I have a real weight!

OK, it wasn't as bad as I had thought it may be. I got the new scale and it put me back up a little. But hey, that could be the different time of day I'm weighing or anything! So my scale wasn't as terribly off as I feared.

My real weight is 263.4 so I just "gained" back 3.4 pounds in a matter of five hours LOL. I'm OK. I was afraid it would put me back up to the 270s or even something more horrible.

Onward and downward!

A loss (I think!)

Well I got on the scale this morning... Let me preface that by saying its the old dial style crappy scale. And besides that, I can no longer get it to set itself back to zero. So I take the beginning number and subtract that from the weight I get when I get on.

It showed a 6 pound loss!!! Woo Hoo!

That being said, I think I'm going to buy a new scale today. One of those digital numbers that gives you your weight to the tenth. I want to spend about $20-$30 this time. I hope that will be enough to get something descent. I fear though that when I get a new scale I'll have to post a new, higher, more accurate weight.

So how am I doing on my goals this week? Well, I'm still not motivated to exercise. Not once! The multi-vitamin has become a habit though. And my water intake is definitely improving. Yesterday, making up a meal plan really helped. I pretty much stuck to it.

But then PMS got the best of me and I made some brownies. That's OK. I did better than I would have in the past. I made a small batch (the square pan size) so that the family would eat them all last night. I cut it into 16 little squares. That made enough for each kid to have two and each adult to have three - a reasonable amount. Here's where my plan failed... The kids for some odd and unknown reason (must get this from their father) didn't eat all of theirs?!?! So that left an extra three brownies and you can guess who ate them! Good thing I only made that small batch or I'd be having them for breakfast this morning too! And here's the really sad and guilty part. My six year old daughter came in crying this morning because she had left one of her brownies intentionally to eat for breakfast. I'm a heel!!! That made me feel horrid. What a way to start the day. But it gives me new motivation to not be THAT mommy.

So here is my meal plan for today.

Coffee - Espresso, 2% milk (I'm a quick study), chocolate syrup

Breakfast - 1 egg, 1 bacon, 2 slices 45 cal whole grain bread, nectarine

Snack - walnuts

Lunch - Salad w/ light catalina and salmon

Snack - Grapes (I think we still have some.)

Dinner - something with shrimp... I'm going to go recipe searching. I'm getting board with my dinners. I think I'll get a fresh veggie at the grocery store... I have broccoli and salad but I've had enough of those lately.

Dessert (Being realistic) - Chocolate pudding w/ a dollop (sp?) of cool whip'

Things to buy at Walmart today:
A new scale!
1% milk
fresh veggies and fruit

Thursday, August 21, 2008


OK, I have not had a gall bladder since December 2005. You'd think by now I'd remember I can not have things like half-and-half!!! I'm paying for that mocha I made this morning! Mental note to self... 2% or better next time!

Not doing well...

Well, I've managed to keep up the multi-vitamin intake most nights. But other than that, I'm not doing great. My moods are horrid. This morning I have made myself an iced cafe mocha in hopes of motivating myself with some major caffiene. We'll see if it works.

I'm being stubborn. I probably need some depression medication. But I hate taking meds... I keep thinking I can kick this on my own if I just do the things I know I need to do even if I don't feel like it. But then I don't do them...

Today I will concentrate on laundry and dishes. I will have a bowl of cereal for breakfast. In fact, I think I'll make up a menu for today...

Coffee - Espresso, chocolate syrup and half and half (But I will do better)

Breakfast - HBoO w/ 2% milk and a nectarine

Snack - Walnuts

Lunch - Salad, w/ light catalina, a slice of swiss cheese and a pieces of whole grain bread

Snack - Baked potato with a bit of butter

Dinner - Salmon, Brown Rice, Broccoli

Water, Water, Water!!!

Monday, August 18, 2008

Not my fault!

OK, the eating was my fault. But the none posting was out of my control. My Internet went down on Friday and has been down until just about 15 minutes ago. So how have I done?

Well, let's see. I have had breakfast each day (at least one). Saturday was not so good. I made double chocolate chip cookies AND Juniors Famous Cheesecake. I took that and lasagne and salad and buttery garlic bread over to a friends house for dinner. Ate like a pig! I did have my multi-vitamin every night except one.

I did OK, but not great. And I'm up in weight I believe. Probably mostly due to all the sodium I've had in the last couple of days.

But the kids all started school today and I'm going to start exercising daily. I did OK with my goals last week so I'm going to add one for this week. Here they are...

1. More water daily
2. Multi-vitamin daily
3. Breakfast daily
4. Blog daily
5. 15 minutes of extra movement of some kind daily

And over all I'm going to try to do better on food choices. But that will not be my main concern yet. I think where I have failed in the past is in the lack of exercise. So I am going to make it a focus to make exercise a real regular habit.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Planning Needed

OK, too many errands and school open houses and not enough preplanning for food choices. So today was a bust foodwise. But I did drink a little water and take my vitamin. But I did NOT eat breakfast. Just didn't even cross my mind this morning. I did have a fun day with the kids though.

We were running all day getting the last of the school supplies. We took Ryan to the doctor. And went to four school open houses at three different schools. Whew!

It did remind me that I need to get the weight off. I was in so much pain at the end of the day from all the walking. When I was down in the 230s I didn't get this pain.

I snuck onto the scale this morning and I was down a couple of pounds. I'm not counting it until official weigh in though.

Speaking of weigh in. I had way too much sodium today. I expect to be very bloated for the next day or two. I hope it goes away before weigh in. ::Running to kitchen to get tall glass of water::

So what will I do to improve on days that I will be out of the house?

1. Take healthy snacks.
2. Take water bottle for thirst.
3. Plan ahead what healthy food I may buy.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008


Not a good day. But I had breakfast, HBoO. Other things I ate today included two grilled cheese sandwiches. Some raw nuts. A little bit of water. I did have my multi-vitamin tonight. At some point I had a small bowl of ice cream.

I did manage to get the kids school supplies organized and make a list of the things I need to buy before open house tomorrow night. I also put one load of laundry in tonight. Perhaps I'm starting to function again? Tomorrow I have to. So maybe it will be the jump start to something I can keep going. It usually helps to get out of the house.

Tomorrow will better mood wise I'm sure.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Still going...

Another day with goals for the week met.

And although I'm not in full healthy mode. But I did make some better choices today. In fact we had a very healthy dinner.

Lemon Pepper Tilapia
Brown Rice

Also, I did make dessert. But instead of making a double batch of brownies, I made a normal batch and that only made one serving for each family member. So they are gone now so I won't be tempted by them all night or for breakfast!

This morning I had a bowl of HBoO. I had pistachios at lunch time (too many). I had a pear sometime today.

I'm having mood issues still. But still seeing an improvement.

I've also returned to my AOL Message Board for support. They are a great group there.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Who knows how much I weigh.

That's a statement not a question. You don't have to try and guess.

My scale is awful. Its one of the cheapest ones that you can buy. Everytime I get on it when I get back off it stays about 10 pounds above zero. If I get back on it, it weighs me about 5-10 lbs higher than the time before. If I reset it I get the original reading or something close. So I'm going with the original reading. But who knows for sure... nobody.

And I didn't weigh at the optimal time of day. I weighed with all my clothes on (no shoes) at 5:10 p.m.

So what's the number? I was close in my guesstimate yesterday. I'm going with 266 from my "who knows" scale. I've gained more than half of what I had lost. Bummer. But I'm still down 26 from my all time high. Whew.

So that's my new starting point 266.

So how have I done today...

Last night I had my multi-vitamin.
I have drank some water. (Not enough, but some which is more than I was. Progress.)
I had string cheese for breakfast. (Better than nothing.)
And I'm here blogging/journalling.

So Day 1 goes down as a success.

I watched a rerun of the Dr. Phil 1000th episode today. (I didn't see it whenever it was originally on.) It was more motivation for me. I can change my habits. I have the power. Boy do I wish I had Dr. Phil sitting on my shoulder all day every day though!

My kids need a happy healthy mom. I need to take care of me! I am worth it! No more slow suicide by mouth!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

A New Beginning

I'm at a low point yet again. And I'm not referring to my weight. Rather my mood.

I need to get healthier. And yes that will involve losing weight. But more importantly I need to eat all the nutrients I need to stay happy and healthy. When I eat from all the healthy food groups not only does it help my waistline. But it also improves my moods.

Back on December 24, 2006 I started making healthier choices. At that time I was at my all time high weight of 292. I started simply by making better choices. For example if I went to McDonalds I didn't go for salad. But I had water instead of soda. I incorporated a phylosophy that I could eat anything I wanted. As long as I had ONE serving. You see it is OK to have a PIECE of cheesecake. But half of a cheesecake is not such a good choice. I concentrated on getting in all the nutrients I needed to keep my body healthy.

Well, I got back to old bad habbits and after being as low as 232, I'm now back up to 265 I believe. I will get on the scale tomorrow to give the real number. Oh I hope its not more depressing than that. But I don't dare weigh at night... So we'll see.

Another thing I tend to do is NOT eat. I figure I'm going to make a bad choice if I go in the kitchen so its better to stay out. But then I get hungry and binge on junk.

So what's the plan?

This week is my children's last week of summer break. So I'm going to start simple.

1. I will drink more water.
2. I will have a multi-vitamin each night before bed.
3. I will eat breakfast every day.
4. I will journal here about my moods and the status of the above goals.

That's it. I can do this.